I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

Galatians 2:20

Confession of a self-hater.

When some post pictures of cute guys…it makes me feel worthless.

Because I can never live up to that. I can never be that. 

Not without plastic surgery and a personal trainer.

And I have neither the time nor the desire for either.

It’s hard to try to live my life for something, to be something,

when everyone else has these glorified ideas of beauty.

I can’t be comfortable in my own skin, with my own bones,

or my voice, or my hair. 

I cannot be happy with these clothes, with this home, with this life.

I make a lot of money for someone my age, but I chose to spend it

on others, on what I think Christ would have me spend it on.

I can be so jealous sometimes, comparing

my body

my laugh

my skin

my hair

my clothes

my everything.

And finding want.

I see potential behind these eyes,

but shrouded in fear, they shall not fly.

I need to be set free.

Jesus take all of me.

  1. kawaiiscience reblogged this from nameful and added:
    Welcome to the thought life of the majority of women around the world, mate. Like you, we are constantly bombarded with...
  2. thesparklynarwhal said: you’re not alone in this. sometimes, when i see pictures of stunning women, it makes me want to never look in a mirror again. but God is so much bigger, and when he is the focus, the other things don’t matter as much anymore. praying for you, friend.
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